Lane's life diary~

近况

2010-05-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

很久都没上来写了~

应该是自己太懒惰了~XP

来报告一下我的近况吧...

最近的我又回到单身了...
没有拍拖的日子就是在家睡觉，看戏~

在家的日子觉得就像不出门的猪一样~

不晓得为什么，每天都觉得很累~

最近的我真的很难吃得下东西，

有吃也是几口而已，

胃口超差的~

人看起来也特别的憔悴~

考试期间还被某某人骚扰~

跟他说了我要读书考试，要睡了也还是不给~

某人啊，你是不是不会听人话，讲了都不会听~

最近头很容易同，也很容易累，或许人老了吧...

算了，都快两张了，不想了...

很忙，很累，很无聊...

晚安~

冬至快乐...

2009-12-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

不晓得为什么，这几个星期肚子都非常的很不舒服...

人好像又衰了一点，前天三个伤口，昨天跌倒四个伤...

昨天一跌才知道人真的很没用同情心...

当你看到一个人跌倒时，失去帮助一个人，而不是袖手旁观...

如果将的情形再下去，这个世界的人类真的都没有救了...

这次的脚伤真的痛到...

本来今天是想跟车车和外星人去玩了，但因为脚很痛而且穿不了鞋，所以不能去...T__T

刚才去收东西时又差一点跌多一次了...

衰到不会讲...

本人现在的肚子真的很不舒服...

超级不舒服，所以超级不爽的...

这个圣诞假期真的有够闷的...

没什么事做的，呆在家里闷死了...

嗨...

到这边吧...

大家晚安...

祝大家冬至快乐...一家人团团圆圆的吃汤圆....

痛~

2009-12-03T01:00:00.003+08:00

我今天终于知道了一件事，原来你始终是放不下过去的，或许你被伤得太深了吧...
自从跟了你后，我真的改变很多，我不再像以前一样的乱发我的脾气，虽然现在还是有，但真的没比以前多...
刚开始听你说你怀疑我的时候，我的心真的很痛，是我以前无法想象也从没经历过的...
我已听到你说你怕我隐瞒你时，我的眼泪真的开始掉下来了，因为我好像已经被你归类成你以前的她...
我真的没想到你会酱想我的，我真的从没想过，你真的放不下她...
或许你真的成经爱她深过我吧，也或许她真的伤了你太深了吧，造成你现在还是放不下她吧...
你要我原谅你，但是真正你应该道歉的人不是我，你应该跟你自己说而不是我...
我昨晚真的是睡不着，因为你的那个字真的在我的脑里一直出现，我真的不能控制我自己不去想...
我或许太了解你了，如果在你心里没想过的东西你是不会说出来的...
有些东西我选择不说是因为我怕伤害了我们，所以我把很多东西都收在心里面，谁也不说...
换作以前的我，一定会找人来诉苦，但是现在的我学会了收藏我不开心的东西...
因为不开心的东西，说出来也不见得会变成开心的，它只会让人更烦恼...
我是个乐天派的人，所以我会把不开心的东西真的很快忘掉，我知选择留开心的事在身边...
我很坚强的，我能够克服一切的，家里的事，你的事，其他的事，我一切都受得了...
我真的很珍惜你，我能把我最好的一切都给你的，但或许你不知道吧...
我不需要你的内疚，我不需要你的道歉，我也不需要你的体谅，我只需要你好好疼我就好了...
这就是我想要的，我昨天跟你说我会没事的，我真的做不到，因为心真的很痛...
你真的无法想象你这次伤我有多痛，我真的很痛，痛得我真的只选择逃避你，我不知道该跟你说什么才好...
我真的有想过这星期我完完全全不想再见到你，但是我觉得我做不到...
或许你爱我不比我爱你深，但是为了你我真的改变了我自己...
哈哈，心又在粹了，我该去买万能胶回来把它一片片，一块块的粘回了...
你会不会看到我今天写的，我不知道，但我真的很用我的心去爱你，我不需要你回报我些什么，我只需要你疼我吧了..

懊恼~

2009-12-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

我不知道在你心里是不是酱想我的，

但我知道如果你没有这样想你是不会说出来的，

我真的不能控制我的情绪，

我看到那个字时，

我真的呆住了，

接下来我真的很生气，

我没想过你会讲说，

但我真的上到了，

心突然痛了起来，

我真的很想发泄，

但我做不到，

或许是我不再像是以前的我了吧，

现在的我除了静默不出声真的什么都不会做了，

我真的笑不出，

我不知道你说哪个字时是无心还是有意思的，

但我真的接受不到，

我真的没有骗你，

你信也好不信也罢，

但我真的没有，

我不是不想跟你说话，

我是不知道要说什么，

而且我也不能说话了，

因为我不想让你听到我在哭，

你要怎么说怎么想我根本控制不了，

就酱吧...

领悟~

2009-12-01T17:26:00.002+08:00

人往往喜欢把有些东西收藏在心里面，

人往往都不知道为了什么，

认真的事很奇怪，

有些人喜欢把事情说出来，

但也有些人喜欢把事情往心里面藏，

这都是为了写什么呢？

所以说认真的好奇怪哦...

不同的人有不同的想法，

不同的人有不同的处世态度与想法...

有些人事感情用事，冲动...

有些人事冷静思考，这应该可以说成是优柔寡断吧...

我也不知道...

我是属于哪一种的呢？

我也不清楚...

有些事情我知道了，

我就选择把它收在心里...

我恨不喜欢被人拆窜我心里在想什么,

以为我讨厌被人知道我心里在想什么，

就算别人知道我在想什么都好，

我都希望她们回静静就好，

不要问我太多，

我不想回答的我是不会回答你的，

我这样子写并不是我出了什么事，

而是我突然领悟到的，

看了不要问我，

知道就算了...

啊~又要考试了...

又是开始冲刺的时候了...

大家加油吧...

minasan gambatehkudasai...hehe><

peace oooo....

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友

2009-11-29T19:45:00.001+08:00

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？
也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。
不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。
即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。
他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。
男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。
每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。
一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。
你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。
特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。
做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？你心中的這個特別的朋友...?
是誰呢？
很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了。常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情。
最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。
有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好.

PS：转载自Facebook

没人性~

2009-11-23T14:27:00.002+08:00

刚才翻看着我的信箱时看到了一封信，

看了不禁辛酸了，

为何人会那么没人性...

以下是那封信的内容...

一名收破爛的老人不小心劃破了一年輕女子的牛仔褲，因拿不出對方要求的50元賠償，老人下跪十次。?? 老人手裏只有8元零4毛.?? 當記者趕到德外大街高等教育出版社門口發現，一個穿灰色羽絨服的中年婦女正在推搡一名衣著破爛的老人，嘴裏喊著：「趕緊賠錢！」周圍上百名路人圍觀。?? 旁邊站著一名20歲左右的女子，藍色牛仔褲腿處被劃開了一條兩三厘米長的口子。被推搡的老人噙著淚水不停地懇求著，手裏捏著一疊毛票，總共8元零4分。?? 不就破一個小口子嗎，至於這樣為難人家嘛。」看著下跪的老人，旁觀路人紛紛勸說「得饒人處且饒人」。面對路人的指責，中年婦女毫不在意，堅決要讓老人賠錢。?? 面對「巨額」賠償老人下跪．?? 據瞭解，當時這對母女走到高等教育出版社附近的路口處，剛好老人騎三輪車拐彎，車上的鐵絲將年輕女子的褲子剮了一個小口。女子的母親要求老人賠她50元。?? 無奈之下，老人「撲通」一聲跪下，不想對方絲毫沒有反應，老人連續下跪十次。?? 這一下把圍觀的群眾惹怒了，在附近大廈當保安的武先生憤怒地說：「對待這樣一個年邁的老人，她們真是欺人太甚。」說完，他將口袋裏的23元錢塞在老人手裏。?? 記者試圖採訪這對母女時，該中年女子說：「甭理她。」?? 路人為老人湊錢賠償．?? 在老人懇求和解未果的情況下，中年婦女最終撥通110報警。5點50分左右，德外派出所的民警趕到現場進行調解，但該中年婦女認為賠償的錢不夠，拒絕和解。這時，圍觀群眾自發掏出錢來，一元、兩元、十元……最後湊夠了50元。?? 老人再次向圍觀群眾下跪，並不斷地說：「謝謝，謝謝。」中年女子拿到錢後，拉著女兒一聲不吭離開了。當時圍觀的群眾紛紛表示賠償50元的結果對老人不公平。民警也表示無奈，稱這是民事糾紛，他們只能充當調解人的角色? 同樣是人，為什麼要踐踏他人的尊嚴呢?！??????

看了真的觉得，

难道当时就没有人能把50元丢给那两母女吗？

为什么要让那个老伯伯拜拜受侮辱？

老伯伯的孩子呢？

亲人呢？

全都到哪去了？

嗨...

这就是我不想面对的其中一个现实...

每当我看到无论在哪里都有些老伯伯或老婆婆在讨钱时，

我都会在想，

他们的孩子呢？亲人呢？

为什么要酱子让他们过活呢？

为什么要酱折磨老人家呢？

真的想不通...

我回来了~

2009-11-19T02:48:00.002+08:00

我终于能恢复我每天过的生活了。。。

上网能算是我的全部吧~

我在家基本上就不是很多话的人，

所以趴在网上就是我的全部咯~哈哈~

刚才看了SJ的部落，

我真的很赞同她所说的，

某肥得你真的很烦耶~

你应该也知道我恨不爽你了吧，

但因为我还需要你的关系，

所以我忍你到现在，

没有的话我一定会跟你翻脸~

我不明白上天为什么要赐给你这个人这个脑,

或许它赐给你是因为想要你帮它帮助人，

但你却把它拿来收，

因为你的自私，因为你的没脑害了周遭的人很辛苦，

就拿上次要去云顶来说，

基本上我们还蛮不想你去的，

但因为我们想把照片放上网所以必须把你请去，

但是我看到的结果是什么？？

看你的脸色

那你每天在学校对我所做的呢？？

我是不是也该一一地告诉你？

我知道我矮，我笨，

但这干你什么事？？？

我矮我要的吗？？

我笨我要的吗？？

这些是上天赐给我的，

我自己都没乱你帮我乱什么，

其他人说我我都没关系，

但就是你说了我恨不爽~

还有我们每一个人上课根本没有人想坐跟你，

所以有时我也不想她们无故受累所以我顶在中间，

还有为什么你每一次就是喜欢把东西放在人家的位子上？？

我们的位不是给你放东西的，

是给我们放我们的东西的药方就放在你的位子上~

还有你不要每次都要麻烦我们帮你拿东西，顾东西，

我们不是你的佣人,

你要的话麻烦你去请一个来学校帮你做啦~

还有，你这个人我们前世是不是整天让你等我们太多所以这世我们要等回你啊？？

每次都是要等你吧了~

你要坐人家的车就请你早一点弄好你的东西，

不要让人家等这是礼貌~

还有最后，你这只肥的因为你我们每次不管是给钱还是坐车，

都要等你，

你不会自动点的吗？

不然要加auto的gear给你吗？

酱你会不会自动点？

我今天说的只有百分之40吧，

剩下的等毕业时我再写一张清单给你har...

没有我怕你不知道~

好啦~

我不想挂你这只肥的了~

我要睡了~

晚安!! =>

P/S:抱歉哦，我表现了我坏的一面了~嘻嘻~

还蛮感人的爱情故事~

2009-11-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

一天女孩過生日，男孩子在她生日的聚會上送了她一只可愛的毛毛熊，在各種生日禮物中，這根本算不上是禮物．女孩有些生氣，也許更多的是憤怒，沒想到自己男朋友這麼小氣，今天是她的生日，還來了這麼多朋友．去年男孩在她生日的時候送了她一把很名貴的藏刀，男孩發誓說，如果有一天他背叛了女孩，女孩可以用刀劃破他的胸膛．今年，兩個人一直在討論兩個人的未來，這麼多朋友都來為女孩慶祝生日，是男孩說在生日哪天會給女孩一個終生難忘的禮物．結果似乎一切都出乎大家的以外，當然主要是女孩！面對女孩憤怒的眼神，男孩只是壞壞的笑，這份禮物真的讓女孩終生難忘．女孩在聚會中喝了很多酒，而男孩只是在旁邊静静的喝着可樂．聚會結束，他們要回到自己的小家，上了公路，女生一直很憤怒，一直在埋怨，車的後排座放了很多名貴的禮物，當然還有那只毛毛熊.女生開始抱怨男孩不愛她，不珍惜他們的愛，男孩只是静静的開着車，什麼也沒有說，偶然會有一絲笑在臉上．酒精在衝動的驅使下發作了．女孩吐了，男孩靠邊停了車，女孩大發脾氣，指責男孩給了她這樣一個不愉快的生日，說了一些很傷感情的事情，男孩一直無語，只是一只手拿着紙巾，一只手拿着礦泉水．女孩突然跑到了公路中間，男孩沒有拉住她，兩個人就這樣在公路上拉扯着．突然，一輛飛馳的快車直奔兩個人行駛過來，男孩想都沒想的扔掉了手中的東西推開了女孩，女孩的頭重重的摔到了地上，等她蘇醒的時候，她已經躺在了醫院，頭上綁着繃帶．那輛飛速行駛汽車的司機，証明是酒後駕車．男孩被撞出了15米，當救護車到的時候，他嘴裡一邊吐着血一直說着〃别管我，看我女朋友怎麼樣？〃到了醫院，男孩已經去了另一個世界，他最後的一話是毛毛熊，毛毛熊在他的要求下，被醫護人員帶上了救護車，他在這個世界上最後的一段路，就是這只小熊一直陪着他．女孩得知男孩離去的消息，一直在哭，哭的昏过去了好幾次．一個有心的護士把小熊送到了她的枕邊．女孩再一次從昏厥中醒來，看着小熊上邊有着男孩的血，似乎有着男孩的體温，她緊緊的把它抱在了胸前，輕輕的摸着它．突然摸一件很硬的東西，女孩從小熊的口袋裡摸出了一件東西，一個戒指盒，裡面有一隻漂亮的鑽石戒指，女孩看到這一切，切底崩潰了．她拼命的哭，用力的撕着自己的頭髮和頭上的繃带，但是一切似乎都没有意義了．女孩去了停屍間，那是的男孩身上的血跡已經被擦干，他干干净净的，安詳的躺在那裡，嘴角還是有着一絲壞壞的笑，女孩用手摸着男孩的頭，淚水從眼角劃落，她不想哭出聲，因為男孩不喜歡她哭．女孩第二天就出院了，回到了他們曾經愛的港灣．打開房門，她被眼前的一切嚇呆了，房間裡滿是玫瑰，桌子上有一個大大的蛋糕，旁邊的一個保温餐盒和一張卡片．打開餐盒裡面是她最愛喝的湯，打開卡片裡面寫着：嫁给我，你一輩子都不會後悔，你一輩子都會感覺温暖，我會一輩子讓你幸福，我會一直守侯在你的身邊，我會每天叫你起床，為你做你喜歡的早餐，送你上班,時刻惦記你，随時給你電話和信息，不讓孤獨的感覺伴隨你一時一刻,晚上我會接你下班，為你做晚飯，晚上讓你在我的懷中睡去後再静静睡去．家裡事情你做主，但是家務還是我來吧，我身體比較好點．如果應酬，我會在11點前回家，如果出差我會把你這幾天食物準備好，當然還有你愛吃的零食．其實愛情就是簡簡單單兩個人的幸福，我們的幸福才剛剛開始，希望……女孩再也看不下去了，她看到了房間裡仿佛滿使他們的歡聲笑語，滿是他們的蜜語甜言，往日的情景一下子，涌入了她的心頭，她在自責，在懊悔，在埋怨…… 想着到底是誰背叛了那曾經美好的東西．曾經的幸福這個時候變的尖銳，曾經的歡笑這個時候變的灰色．男孩火化的那天女孩沒有去，女孩一個人静静的呆在他們愛的港灣，躺在他們經常做愛的床上，看着他們出去旅游时的錄像，輕輕的用去年生日哪天男孩送他那把藏刀割開了自己的手腕…… 窗頭放着一張卡片：親愛的我來了，沒有你的日子我好難過．是我錯了，你走的這幾天，我一直在回味我們在一起的日子，你的體温你的氣味你的壞笑和你做的飯，你是個騙子你說過一生守護我的，沒有你，一個人睡覺好冷的，沒有你做飯我肚子好餓，沒有你在身邊我好孤單，你慢點走，我來了，雖然你沒有實現你的承諾，但是我還是真的愛你，壞蛋我來了，慢點走，在前面等我，我來了…… 戀愛中的朋友們。。好好珍惜吧。。也許這個世界沒有那麼完滿的愛．但是這個世界有着最愛你的人和你最愛的人．當最愛你的人和你最愛的人是一個人的時候，告訴你．你是幸福的，有些人往往是三角戀，也許你不懂我的愛．我想看了這篇日誌你應該明白點吧．呵呵不說了希望看完這篇日誌的人珍惜眼前的一切不要因為一點小事鬧大架看完要轉載哦！！！！！

hi~

2009-10-20T03:08:00.002+08:00

hehe~

long time din cum bek d lo~

so miss my blog~

nothing much to say~

but i recently taking my car driving license~

its quite late to take it nw~

i shud take it earlier,

but bcz of my lazyness,

i ended up taking it nw~

hehe~

u all noe la,

lazy eh ppl is like tis liao eh la,

sumore im a lazy pig... lol

but it is quite rush,

i plan to use 1 week for listening all the L khusus and the test,

n i wan it pass once oni~

it was a challenge for me~

thinking of after i can drive car although i ade noe hw to drive i still duno y i shud take so much exam~

sien nia~

i think this is for today nia gua~

mata ne~

最美好的生日礼物~

2009-07-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

我忘了跟大家说，

我昨天收了一份很开心而且很美好的生日礼物~

我很喜欢他送我的生日礼物~

这份礼物我会好好珍惜的~

所以说我等了半年，

不是白费的咯~

哈哈~

太高兴了~

人的嘴巴~

2009-07-26T17:02:00.001+08:00

人的嘴巴真的很多~

天给我们嘴巴是拿来吃东西~

而我们往往就是那来讲人~

我也不例外，

我也是普通人~

我也会讲人~

但怎么样，我们都得适可而止~

我就看你们能讲多久~

我都不回再见到你们的了~

我无所谓的~

hw long did lane been alive~XD

2009-07-26T03:22:00.000+08:00

Lane calculated how long he has been alive, and the result was:

I was born on a Friday and since my birthday...
I've been living for 18 years
I've been living for 228 months
I've been living for 6,938 days
I've been living for 166,522 hours
I've been living for 9,991,364 minutes
I've been living for 599,481,896 seconds
My heart has beaten more than 699,395,480 times!

disappoinment~

2009-07-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

today i was going out will lao de,

den he was telling me sumthing tat SOMEONE was keapo+ing nw,

tat SOMEONE keapo go ask lao de eh gang,

den nw i duno wat the shit she had tell to other ppl,

me n lao de is going to watch Harry Potter and the half blood prince,

the movie to me n lao de is quite boring lo~

but when the movie wan end eh si,

suddenly shock me wif the sound effect,

i was scream n jump up~

wat la, scare me nia~

ntg is horrible pun~

den when we go bek eh si,

my cousin call me n tell me i will be start working on 10th of august,

my life fell from heaven to hell~

i was so scare abt it~

maybe is i think too much d gua~

hope is i think too much lo~

sumore lao de tell me sumthing tat make me disappointed wif SOMEONE...

which is tat SOMEONE is making a lot of rumours out~

i duno y~

it involve lao de n a fren~

y u wan do such thing out~

i was talking wif u on msn cz lao de ask for,

n look wat i gt in return,

the disappointment tat u gv me,

in the msn conversation,

u hv been telling me 6 lies~

i duno wat to do wif u d~

u do wat as u like~

im frustrated d~

i dun wan to chap u d~

i dun even think u r one of my fren~

after lao de noe i was nt happy,

he call me n v spend on talking on phone abt 1 and 30 minute for it~

thx for making me happy again~

n now v noe hw each other heart so...

hehe~ secret~ wan noe ma msn me la~

c i wan tell bor lo~

haha~

感人...

2009-07-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

刚才在facebook翻来翻去时，发现了一个youtube的link。。。

因为无聊就按进去看，结果是看到了一个很感人的爱情故事。。。

我很想要这首歌哦，但哪里能给我download到勒？？

要找咯~

我终于熬过了四天的考试了~

还有星期一的一科，之后就是放假了~

好开心哦~

放假就能睡一整天了~

好期待放假哦~

能去云顶放松放松~

接下来就是那个感人的爱情故事啦~

大家慢慢欣赏吧~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_duTfJRp6E&NR=1

等待。。。

2009-07-23T20:04:00.001+08:00

等待。。。

到底什么是等待？？

等待不是一个人在等另一个人或东西吗？？

你所对过我说的等待到底是什么意思？？

难道只是讲爽而已的吗？？

你说过等我，但是在等我的过程当中，你身边多了那么多人, 这还算是等待吗？

我没说过要等你，但是我的身边为什么都没人出现过？

我今天突然间想到很多很多为什么~

我真的很好奇等待的定义到底是什么~

我真的很希望下一个出现的人不要让我等待或能告诉我等待到底是什么~

还有两科我就自由了~

好想好好的睡个大觉哦~

我的精神跟我的身体都好累哦~

Law跟Acc，只要搞定你，我就能睡了~

不过law很难耶~

要怎么搞定它？？

怕怕的，啊啊啊啊啊啊~

救命啊~

Bon odori~

2009-07-19T02:14:00.002+08:00

argh, so damn tired~

leg very tired oso~

my backbone oso tired~

juz nw go meet lao de n ivy at esplanade abt 5 ane~

i din go wif sj, car fetch me n put me at esplanade thr~ thx car~

later diok go buy ticket for buying food n thing in bon odori~

bye 20 bucks~

but later lao de win gt "salary" again den diok go buy another 2 set of coupun again~

in the total, we 3 ppl ade buy 100 bucks of ticket from bon odori~

but me n lao de total oni use 18 bucks nia~

the rest, ivy n lily use ki, n sell 10 bucks to our cute sj~

tis day i oso meet the very kap siao eh fatty~

he is lao de housemate~

everytime, i skype wif lao de, oso hear his sound first more than other~

believe me, he is very kap siao~

he is talking non-stop~

den, all of them wanna drag me to ghost house~

but bcz i dun wan den lao de oso say he dun wan go in d~

he sayang me eh ma, he bu she de let me go in thr eh la~hehe~

den v wait outside~ but then v go to the main stage to c ppl performing~

but as they say its nt worth it~

cz its nt scary oso, lao de say better take tat 8 bucks to go eat~

later me n lao de sit at a place n hang thr for waiting sj cum find us~

sj is running for her life~XD

later me n lao de diok go watch yan hua 2gether~

the fireworks is so pretty~

n very romantic oso~

den v use 2 hr to cum bek here~

tired.....

i duno when he start to becum like tis caring to me~

he summore pay for me on wat i eat~

laz week oso like tis~

tis week oso~

wat happen neh??

wan ask or dun wan ask?

wan remain tis state or dun wan??

many question cum out d~

hmmm~

but late d~

i wait exam finish kah think la~ hehe~

late lo~

wan slp d~

oyasumi nasai~

finally~

2009-07-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

finally lane is updating her blog d~

so dun complain i din update liao~

i dun update is bcz i knt update ma~

cz i dun wan sum ppl read diok my blog other than my frenz~

ok nw, lane wan copy eileen teach eh word~

To SOMEPEOPLE----

1st, Fuck you!!! Dare to ply me~

2nd, Shit you!!! Use same trick to trick me~

3rd, u r the rubbish of the world~

To another SOMEPEOPLE----

1st, Fuck you oso~ cz u use other ppl acc to talk wif me~

2nd, Fuck you again~ u r the one making me in tis situation~

3rd, Fuck you again~ if im alone forever, is bcz u make me one~

im nw very very frustrated abt guys~

i might started to hate guys~

i might continue to keep a big distance to guys~

Jack, dun worry, i might bcum lao gu po eh chances is increasing~

but lao de is except from all tis, cz he is like my family ki d~

duno when it been happen, but i consider he is my family~

although v hv so called skinship, but as v both noe it will nt change our relationship~

lane nw is in the mode of half ki siao~

but if i gt kek by someppl or he kacau me again~

i sure change into totally ki siao eh mode~

the mode will continue for a long period~

lets talk abt happy thing~ ^^

talk abt saturday, me n lao de go out eh si~

bcz of v talk diao xiao li, so it rain all day~

n bcz of xiao li, lao de broke a lot of thing tat day~

bcz of lao de c her when he go cut hair~

haha~ lao de scare abt xiao li d~

yay, i gt his weakness d~

tat day, lao de gt salary n treat me eat leh~

haha~ n v oso watch ice aged 3 oso~

the 2nd time he watch animation wif me d~

sumore, i help him treat his stomach~

i alwaz bit it n make him feel hungry very easy~

haha~ so he can treat me eat many times lo~

yay~ so many thing wan to write but nw boh lat~

im sick again~
haiz~ y i sick again~

ok la, i promise lao de to take care myself~

but i duno can bor~

i oso promise him to drink a lot of water~
but i duno i can bor oso~

haiz~ if knt oso mai let him noe~

he will ngor me eh~

hehe~

wan slp lo~

nite everyone~

annyeong~

恐惧~

2009-06-18T23:13:00.003+08:00

我真的很辛苦

我不想再为装了

我真的真的很辛苦

我真的很压力

我真的忍不住哭了

我讲过我不会再因为害怕你而哭了

但是我做不到

我真的很害怕我变回以前的样子

我已经决定不要爱了

爱只会让人更痛苦

我宁愿一个人一辈子也不要再遇见第二个你

你是我这一辈子的恐惧

你是我这一辈子的后悔

为什么年现在就可以跟别人幸福的而我却是一个人承担你留给我的伤

为什么你可以象什么都没发生过一样？？？

为什么？！！！！

我真的很讨厌你

我不想再变回一年多前的我

我很害怕那个我

我不想再让我妈担心我

我更不想让我姐跟我朋友担心我

我也想要好好过

但是我真的快撑不住了

我已经快要爆炸了

我不知道我自己还能撑多久

我希望能撑更久

我很想把这恐惧丢掉

不要再留在我心里了

你赶快走吧

我求你。。。

still same...

2009-06-18T13:20:00.003+08:00

juz now wake up eh time...

the feeling keep cuming...

i think im most relax when i was slping...

thz god for gving me a nice n peace slp...

haiz...

im feeling a bit unwell 2day...

is it becz of my emo problem??

i duno...

i juz feel like i dun wanna eat anything for the whole day...

haiz...

like tis for nw la...

emo+ing life...

2009-06-18T03:10:00.002+08:00

duno starting from when i becuming emo gal...

i dun actually noe y i shud emo for...

but i noe i gt a lot of pressure from manythings...

i gt pressure from my family, lfie n study...

family, some sad problem broke ppl's heart and make ppl worry...

life, ok i admit i hv a bit phobia, but it still ok...

study, final is arriving whithin 3 weeks...

im feeling tat the atmosphere around me is black...

and there's a lot of caption for me is "haiz"...

i duno wat to haiz but i haiz for nothing...

i duno wat happen to me...

scare the guys wif action...

i duno im ready enough for another ppl but i do noe im feeling scare...

i emo until i cant even eat or slp well...

thx god, my aunt going bek n i hv my own bed again, yay...

but still wanna haiz gok...

i really dun wan to tell ppl im nt happy...

im trying to pretend tat im happy...

but i duno sumhw ppl will noe it from my face...

i really dun wan let ppl worry abt me...

if nt i will more emo than now...

i will emo until ki siao bor???

i duno tis answer yt but i think 50/ 50 gua the percentage...

i would like to share good thing wif fren but i dun like sharing bad news wif fren...

cz i wan my fren oni happy nia...

haiz....

late d...

wan go bek to emo again...

nite...

duno wat happen to me...

2009-06-16T00:37:00.002+08:00

最近都不知道为了什么，我这几天都一直梦到你...

不管是睡午觉或是晚上睡觉，我都会梦到你...

我不只会梦到你，还会梦到你的女朋友...

到底是了为什么，梦到你就很奇怪了，连你的女朋友都梦到就更稀奇了...

为什么每次梦到你我的心就好痛??

为什么我每次梦到你我就很想哭啊??

我不想再酱得过下去。。。

你不痛苦但我很痛苦啊。。。

我希望今晚跟以后我都不会在梦到你了。。。

我想彻底放开你跟我的所有回忆。。。

我不想再想起有你的回忆。。。

我要彻彻底底的把它忘掉。。。

Tag No.4

2009-06-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

Taggie Taggie.

1.My Name : Elaine
2.My birthday : 27th July 1990
3.Who tagged you : Hazel
4.Name 5 best friends : SJ, Hazel, Eileen, Carmen and Jacklynn (can i add another 1, Yvonne)
5.What do you wished for birthday : I wish all the people i noe can live happy and stay healty
6.Happy things that happened recently : Playing shooting with frenz in BB
7.Most stressed about recently : So many thing
8.What is your dream about future: Stay in life by my own style
9.Do you have someone you like : Of course, it was my parent and my TVXQ, most of all is my YunHo Oppa....
10.Will you visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : I so far hvnt meet them in the gathering before
11.Most happy to hang out with : My frenz
12.If two of your friends are having conflicts : If can i will give them advice and make them frenz again
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : I was confusing between Japan or Korea
14.What to do in Christmas : Waking up early and go shopping with my mum
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Family or Friends
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : Still laying there for a few minutes
17.How many siblings do you have : 1 brother
18.Favourite song(Female) : Woah, so many cannot write them out la...><><>4. May Ling
5. Hazel

02-【No.10 is a male or?】: Male gua, duno...
03-【The hobby of no.8】: Duno...
04-【Does no. 1 have any siblings】: 1 elder sister and 2 younger sisters
05-【The surname of of no.7】：Duno...
06-【Does no.10 have a lot of friends?】: Duno la...
07-【Anyone tackling no.4?】: Maybe got gua...
08-【If no.2 is being introduced?】：Erm....
09-【The favourite colour of no.6】: Duno...
12-【Where is no.5 studying currently?】: DIP-BUS
13-【How do you know no.10?】: Duno...
14-【Wad the difference between the birth month of no.1 and you?】: 3 months
15-【Ever hang out with no.9?】：Got gua...
16-【Do you like to chat with no.2?】: Ya, we talk so much thing...
17-【Like to be with no.3?】: Yes gua...
18-【How do you think about no.7?】：Duno...
19-【How do you think about no.9?】：Duno...
20-【Do you love no.5?】: Ya, she is the fren that like hanging out...

NUMBER.
1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : Hazel
2.How long have you known him/her : About a year plus
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Quite gua
4.Your relationship with him/her : Schoolmates
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : Hanging out with friends, Blogging, MSN+ing, Shooting people in BB
6.What do you think about his/her personality? : Friendly and Nice
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : My friend

＊1st thing before sleep : Laying down on my bed
＊1st thing after awaking from sleep : Wash face
＊Your idol : TVXQ and mostly YunHo... and a lot more korean idol...
＊Favourite season : All gua
＊Worked part-time before? : Yes
＊Times worked : 3
＊Country that wanted to go the most : Confusing between Japan and Korea
＊Personality hated : Bad personality people... Like Ms F
＊Are you a crybaby? : No la, im not that useless gok
＊You laugh alot? : Ya, I laugh almost everyday, anytime and everywhere
＊Do you like to go out alone? : I can after i start my college life
＊What time will you wake up if it's a holiday? : Depends on what time i sleep, but i still will sleep when i bored
＊Today’s weather（Sunny Rainy Cloudy）: Sunny day
＊Choose between Friends and Lover : Friends
＊Choose between Chances and Fates : Chances
＊Are you narcissist? : Not so gua
＊Is this questionnaire long? : Ya la
＊Favourite food : Japanese Food
＊Do you like ice? : Yes
＊Are you full of happiness? : Yes, but will emo when im blogging
＊Who are the friends that you care the most? : College friends
＊What's the most important item in your bed room? : Air-cond, nowdays I can't sleep without air-cond cz the weather is too hot
＊Most consistent dream at sleep : Erm, i duno wor
＊Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : Duno wor, depends gua
＊Whats the meaning of life? : To live a meaningful life
＊Do you know?（See if you can answer this! ）: Wan me know wat wor...
＊When do you hate me? : Never
＊Like the day you were born or been into the society?: Ya, cz less people born in this day i guess...
＊Like Taoism or Confucianism? : Buddhistism
＊Favourite cake? : Cheese cakes, Blackforest and Blueberry
＊Can we stop this game now? : Yes
＊Do you like sardines?: Sometimes
＊Who knows you the best? : My sis
＊IQ higher or EQ? : I duno wor
＊Computer or Mobile Phone : Computer
＊Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep
＊Friendster or Facebook? : Facebook
＊Whats your wish right now? : I wish i can stay healthy and happy
＊Tired? : A bit, but i just wake up nia =.="
＊Favourite drinks : Mocha Frappachino, Crysantinum and Ice-lemon Tea

ichibanzai 09~ part 1

2009-06-06T23:57:00.004+08:00

today is the first day of KDU 2009 ichibanzai~

erm, first i think tis year eh ichibanzai is nt as many ppl as last year...

erm, i think nw i start my complaining again...

To SOMEBODY, u din go thr to help but u go thr to kacau ppl work...

To SOMEBODY, u go thr to kao zha bo n ur nt helping us...

To SOMEBODY, again u say the food is nt nice but u still buy it to eat, wat do u mean...

To SOMEBODY, again i duno i can tahan u until when, i duno when i will explode...

To SOMEBODY, do u hv a problem on ur fashion senses? do u noe wat is the code dress for u to wear on particular event? do u nid some ppl to help u?

To SOMEBODY, v all expect u to fall down but unfortunately u din, so disappointed... haiz...

To Mr.BANGLADESH, y u sit bus knt sit hor hor eh? i ade siam u siam kah no place to siam d, ade tak piak d, u still wan sit beside me n sit a huge spaces, bus so big u knt sit other place meh, nge nge wan sit wif me meh?!!! kek si nia, plz respect ppl la, u cum other ppl country d, u still doing tat to the ppl who gv u some place eh...

haiz... these day i really complain a lot...

To my frenz,

nut, i duno i hv been emo recently on my blog...

i juz wanna spit out all thing nia...

sj, i noe u recently really bz bcz of doing so many things at the same time, but take care of urself, dun let urself to tired oooo....

car, leen n von, gambateh on hving a fren like her, if anything lane can help eh, lane will help u all dao di eh... i support u all...

yay, 2day gt c diok quite handsome eh visual kei...

quite yang yan eh...XD

can gv my eyes on a spa treatment neh...

thx to u ooo...

yunho oppa, i still love u eh but i hv to spa my eyes oso when i hv real chance...

if u jealous eh hua, u diok cum msia c me la, i gv ur eyes a spa treatment.... XD

von n leen 2day wear yukata nice lo, so im gonna wear it 2mr, muahaha...

hope it will nice la...

happy to c diok vic n apple neh...

long time no c d...

have so much fun 2day...

2mr is the laz day...

minasan, gambateh kudasai...

at last 1 yunho oppa pic...XD

recently...

2009-06-06T02:10:00.002+08:00

To SOMEBODY, u nw noe tat hw other ppl thought abt u...

so plz do change urself...

if u noe n din change urself, ppl will still boycotting u...

To SOMEBODY, u wasnt her servant, u no nid to do as she said eh...

try to do sumthing tat let her noe she cant do tat to u oso...

To SOMEBODY, i c diok u gt bf i happy for u but in the same time,

i felt lagi scare abt hving a bf cz many problem will happen eh...

To SOMEBODY, i scare tat u will explode all the thing out to SOMEBODY,

at that time v all die... (scare)

To SOMEBODY, i duno hw to talk wif u lo, when tat time u call me i was thinking hw to make u hung up...

To SOMEBODY, although v sakit kepala on whether wan u go trip wif us or nt oso duno, call u diok knt sampat so much, din call u diok scare u noe liao angry wif us, headache lo...

To SOMEBODY, i dun wan u go trip wif us oso, u r banded out of our trip...

To SOMEBODY, haiz i duno wan complain wat liao...

seriously, i was having so much pressure nw...

i pass my ae3, MIS n bus stat so far, but i noe i failed law...

the law lec is damn so gila one...

u din tell us wat is ur style of wan us to answering the question but u minus our marks bcz of tat...

wat the heck person are u???

are u mad? are u going on some manopause period? did u gt problem or nt?

y u do tis to us?

sumore the ass tat u gv us, v really duno wat is tat E.R, R.E.P stands for...

cant u try to teach or explain to us first?

i really mad of u, u beh syok us wat?

from nw on, i wont pay too much attention on ur class...

i really scare of BF liao,

i c ppl pak tor until i scare ki...

haiz, i... i... duno wan say wat liao...

i realiza tat guan lai wo men jia de ah nut gt exercise eh lo...

aiseh, praise her yi xia xia...

haha, ah nut trust me, ur nt fat la, u nt over-lenglui or under-lenglui, u r tu tu hor...

haha, ah nut jia you ooo...

everyone oso jia you ooo....

haiz, late d...

wanna slp d...

oyasumi nasai.... ><

i wonder...

2009-06-02T01:49:00.003+08:00

i wonder wat is love...

yesterday nite when i was chatting wif ah yeh eh time...

v was talking abt love...

i was wondering wat is love now???

aren't love suppose to be a thing that make ppl happy...

but y its making ppl suffering from it??

its a deep question for me,

i duno i nid how much time to think out tis answer...

but i think there wont be any answer rite?

cz if thr are answer for it,

ppl wont be suffer from it...

but still a lot of ppl are falling into it...

love is a big question even go wikipedia oso cant find the answer i want...

n hw to reject ppl oso is a big question for me...

i wan to reject him but hw i do i reject him n wont hurt diok his feeling...

ok, form 3 eh time i use one of my fren as an excuse...

but nw i wan use wat as an excuse d...

i admit it i reject him eh biggest problem is his skin tone is darker than me a lot...

n the most important is i dun hv feeling wif u...

u call me baby oso no use, u telling me u miss me oso no use...

u noe y no use cz i hv no feeling wif u...

n most of all i think u r a bit playboy...

so plz dun say miss me or calling baby again...

im nt ur gf la...

u wan go find 1 la...

im nt suitable for u...

besides that, to mr. duno who, if next time u wanna ply wif me think u can win bor first...

wan talk like tat eh thing wif me is like u sending urself to hell...

im evil eh ok...XD

i really duno wat ur mind think wat...

U R REALLY REALLY STUPID!!!!!

if u mess up wif me, u hv to ready first cz u gonna mess up by me....

muahaha...

beside tat, i found diok oppa eh handsome pic d...

really nice eh...

for me la...

so happy....

2009-05-31T03:33:00.002+08:00

tat day i went gurney wif my frenz...

v hv lunch at sakae...

i met zhu zhu, lee lee n beng xiang leh...

so damn happy abt it, v hvnt seen each other for ages...

surprisingly saw them at gurney...

and thr 1 thing im nt really happy abt n i would gt angry eh is...

ppl if u make wrong order plz juz eat it...

ppl if the waiters is making mistake, i noe u dun like it but still eat it...

they r cuming from overseas to here n work for their family...

if is their mistake still accept it, its their fault but u hv to consider other ppls condition, if nt the other ppl wont consider for u too...

juz help them, who noe sumday u might nid them...

i really dun like ppl like tis, tis world is abt love n helping rite?

u oni matters urself eh problem, everytime eh...

when u nid us, u cum to us...

when u doesnt nid us, u chai u doh mai...

wat kind of ppl r u???

i really beh syok kah a limit d...

but still i dun wanna chai u...

ok, seriously, i hate ppl saying the word "shit" infront of me....

especially when im eating, i can tahan u said it out when im nt eating but i knt tahan to c it...

i noe, i shit too, but i dun like to talk abt it, for me shit is disgusting!!!

i will gt angry when im eating n u say shit or gv me c sumthing tat abt shit...

i might b killing u...

plz noe my style, at least tis...

haiz, pg eh traffic really is a big problem for me n car d...

v stuck on the traffic almost abt 2 hrs...

v r tired n still in the traffic...

was it bcz of ferrenheit or bcz of skol holidays????

oh ya, skol holiday r here, but it oni for government skol nia, argh....

i wan holiday again....

ok, i wanna stop here...

happy holidays to the ppl who is on holiday nw....

enjoy....

bye, nitey nitey~

100 Truths

2009-05-27T19:06:00.003+08:00

I cant believe i made it, 100 truths abt me, i din lie on tis tag, i do it for sj n haz n who ever tag me in nia~

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR
1. Last beverage: Coke
2. Last phone call: My mum me to pass my phone to my aunty
3. Last text message: A 'haha' message to my fren
4. Last song you listened to: 'Tell me you love me (说你爱我)' by Wilbert Pan
5. Last time you cried: This wednesday bcz of sum stupid thing (u will noe when u read my post)

HAVE YOU EVER
6. Dated someone twice: Yup bt is 2 yrs ago i think~
7. Been cheated on: Yup, twice i think~
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: YUP!!!
9. Lost someone special: Yup, really miss them.... dearest Grandpa n Grandma~
10. Been depressed: Gt depressed b4 la, bt nt so depressed kah wan die~
11. Been drunk and threw up: I like drink but i hvnt drunk n threw up b4, trust me~

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS
12. White
13. Pink
14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yup~ the most close eh is sj, nut, car, eileen, von n jack~
16. Fallen out of love: Not Yet~
17. Laughed until you cried: Yup, most of the funny times~
18. Met someone who changed you: Erm.... nt yt, bt nw im hard to changed by other ppl except myself~ haha XD

19. Found out who your true friends were: YES!!!!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Erm... Yes n i noe who bcz they talk it terang terang!!!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No!
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: Not much, cz i change from time to time but still gt some who noe me~
23. How many kids do you want to have: Maybe 1 - 4, cz i like kids~ >.< 24. Do you have any pets: I dun hv 1 bt i will hv one soon n it will be a dog, it will b like 1 of TVXQ dog~ ><
25. Do you want to change your name: Perhaps can change it to more specials n unique~
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I hv a bday party at my hse wif frenz~
27. What time did you wake up today: I wake up 3 times today, 1st was on 12.50 am, 2nd was on 7++ am, 3rd was on 8.45 am~
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Receiving call from ant~
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Erm... pretty much everything la~
30. Last time you saw your Mother: An hour ago~
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I hope i b more taller so ppl wont call me a gina~
32. What are you listening to right now: 寂寞出租 by Wilbert Pan again

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope~
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Yes! n thr is 2 of them nw~
35. Most visited webpage: www.facebook.com~ for the current time~
36. Whats your real name: Ng Lee Ling~
37. Nicknames: Pig, Lane, Gina~

38. Relationship Status: Im stayin SINGLE~
39. Zodiac sign: Horse
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: S.R.J.K (C) Hua Min
42. Middle School?: SMK LUNAS
43. High school/college?: KDU penang campus
44. Hair colour: Black plus brown n most important it is natural eh, hoho~
45. Long or short: Wan say it long nt long, wan say it short koh nt short~
46. Height: 155cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: YES n its a korean guys, noe me eh ppl noe who am i talking~
48: What do you like about yourself?: My positive thinking, im always happy eh~
49. Piercings: 1 on each of my ear, u wan noe hw many go c i hv hw many ears la~ XD
50. Tattoos: No, Never!!! i dun wan find pain for myself to suffer~
51. Righty or lefty: Righty~

FIRSTS
52. First surgery: Hvnt have one b4~
53. First piercing: Errr... let me recall, if nt mistaken is abt im was 3 yrs old~
54. First best friend: Err, still in fren wif her~
55. First sport you joined: Badminton n din practise for long time d~
56. First vacation: Erm, i think i was very small eh time~
58. First pair of trainers: Wats tat?

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: No~
60. Drinking: No~
61. I'm about to: Going to bath~
62. Listening to: 不得不爱 by Wilbert Pan again~ XD

63. Waiting on: I din waiting for wat nw~

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: Maybe~
65. Get Married?: Maybe~
66. Career?: A job tat im satisfied, happy wif it, can earn money n perhaps controling ppl~XD

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes cz i can c beautiful things~
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs cz i cant kiss other ppl~
69. Shorter or taller: Taller plz~
70. Older or Younger: Younger cz young is gud~
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic la, to ppl wan pikat me plz notice tis, i hate straight forward n unromantic ppl!!! XD
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I dun think i have both oso, cz ppl say im fat, u go judge urself la~
73. Sensitive or loud: I think sensitive gua~
74. Hook-up or relationship: I think is relationship gua~
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant gua~

HAVE YOU EVER
76. Kissed a stranger: Of course no~
77. Drank hard liquor: Not yet~
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes~
79. Sex on first date: Wat?! No~
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes, no one noe tat oso~
82. Been arrested: Not yet, hope i wont~
83. Turned someone down: Try before~
84. Cried when someone died: Yes, on my grandpa n grandma funeral, cry a lot almost all the time~
85. Fallen for a friend?: Try before~

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself: Sometimes~
87. Miracles: Yes~
88. Love at first sight: Yes~
89. Heaven: Yes~
90. Santa Claus: Although i noe santa din exist but still i believe it exist~
91. Kiss on the first date: Maybe~ I hvnt try b4~
92. Angels: Maybe~

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No, im loyal to my bf~
95. Did you sing today?: Hvnt~
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No~
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Before i date wif him~
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day of my bday, i wanna enjoy it again~
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Pretty much nw~
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Of course la~ XD

Tag 25 people

1. Sj

2. Nut

3. Ant

4. Vic

5. ....... (din hv tat much fren plying blog la)

2009-05-26T03:53:00.002+08:00

歌名：不得不爱

天天都需要你来爱
我的心思由你猜
I Love You
我就是要你让我每天都精彩
天天把它挂嘴边
到底什么是真爱
I Love You
到底有几分说得比想像更快

是我们感情丰富太慷慨
还是有上天安排
是我们本来就是那一派
还是舍不得太乖
是那一次约定了没有来
让我哭得像小孩
是我们急着证明我存在
还是不爱会发呆 Baby
不得不爱否则快乐从何而来
不得不爱否则悲伤从何而来
不得不爱否则我就失去未来
好象身不由己不能自己很失败
可是每天都过得精彩
I Ask GirlFriend how you been
来去了几回我从来没有想过
爱情会变得如此无奈是命运吗
难道难过是上天的安排没办法
天天的每天的心思到底由谁来陪
我诚心你诚意但周围扰人的环境
始终让我们无法在这里自由相恋
我精采你发呆两颗心不安的摇摆
应该有的未来是否真的那麽的无法期待
舍不得再伤害
You're girl my girl my friend
How much i love you so so much baby
看着你哀愁要我如何怎麽承受面对
I'm sorry you're my swe! etheart
My love My one&only baby
会不会有一点无奈
会不会有一点太快
可是你给我的爱
让我养成了依赖
心中充满爱的节拍

还记得这是我跟他的歌，是我常唱给他听的...
但现在已不再是了，大家都改变了...
我跟你结束之后你经过了那么多次感情，而我呢却还在原点徘徊...
原来你跟我是那么的不一样的，你能那么轻易得忘了我但我却做不到....
原来你能那么轻易得就接受别人，而我却还是做不到...
现在的我很害怕再回去以前的我，我不想再变回去了，我不想再把自己关起来...
谁能告诉我，我现在该怎么做??
我不想再回去，我绝对不想!!!
都是你害的!!! 我讨厌你!!!
T___T

2009-05-26T03:47:00.002+08:00

by2 - 我知道

作词:于萱作曲:于萱

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

feeling...

2009-05-26T03:28:00.002+08:00

lately, im very frustrated onto myself being so useless...

i've decided to forget abt him a long time ago but i duno y i still cant do it,

when im alone, im always feel like im lonely n suddenly i will cry out,

i duno is bcz i still rmb him, miss him or wad, or im juz lonely,

it confused me a lot.

im juz so useless, im the most useless even on relationship, study or other things,

im juz feeling myself as a useless person, nw im even think of stoping my study nw,

the reason tat im stoping is tat im feeling im useless cz everytime in doing my assignment i always been rejected without knowing, im useless when exam cz my brain will nt function well...

but the reason tat im still continue is all bcz of my mum n my little bro cz i can gv them bek the thing tat they have gv me n i want to gv them a better life...

im juz so confused, my brain are malfunctioning, oh shit tat feeling cum again!!!

to those ppl tat like to insult ppl,

ok, im nt pretty, im nt in gud shape, im dumb, im useless, i dun hv bf, i dun hv sumone tat love me, i dun hv the very very rich life like u so wat!

im not doing anything n im still smile at u bcz i force to do tat, if nt im gonna bring u to hell!!!

im really really depressed recently but i dun wan to let ppl noe cz i dun wan u all to worry abt me much, i dun show out, cry out to all ppl cz i noe it wont b helping much cz im a very negative ppl inside n positive outside...

OMG!!! im really really getting a lot of pressure lately, shit!!!!

WA JIN JIA KANG KOR ARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

finally blah half out...

but it still a lot of thing in my deep heart...

*PS: dun bother me guys, juz ignore tis post...

neck pain...T__T

2009-04-07T02:17:00.002+08:00

argh, neck pain rite nw...

i was taking my resit 2day o yesterday, i hvnt slp for the whole nite to study for my IT...

i hate resit cz its too much pressure than final exam...T__T

i really really hope i can pass for this time n i promise i wont fail again...

i will study really really hard for every of my exam...

plz god, help me!!!

haiz, nite class again, wont b cuming home again, i wan my bed...

2day i go to watch fast n furious wif sj n nut...

at first i think i wont like tis movie coz it will b having a lot of drift scene n i dun like it...

and the thing tat motivate me to go watch tis movie is dbsk cz their song rising sun was inside it...

but finally i fell in love wif tis movie n i wanna watch it from the first to the forth one...

acctually it wasnt oni abt the cars but it oso abt the crime fighting n cops...

quite like it... hehe...

i think tis is it... gud nite o morning everyone...

so sad...

2009-04-04T03:04:00.002+08:00

argh... KBS American has been removed all the video of GBN from a channel that i watch it...

i hvnt download it yet... T__T

so sad...

so i would hv to download it from arashi.com, thx arashi.com for uploading GBN for us...

beside tat i oso wanna thx ledoquyen for uploading so much new o latest korean song for me to download... ^^

haiz i wasnt been able to go skate wif ah car, ah vic n eileen 2day cz no ppl gonna fetch me go bek...

i really like skating cz it help me to exercise much more than other activities...

im gonna go skate when i was free...

i think i gonna bcum a korean soon cz i alwaz watch korean show, listen to korean song, like korean culture n others...

its start from i was watching korean drama since i was in secondary n it becum more heavy since i like dbsk...

i sumore learn to talk korean n japanese n write them out...

i duno in the future i will bcum a japanese o a korean...XD

i really like the culture of korea but i like to live at japan...

haiz, this for 2day, bye!!!

cleaning...

2009-04-03T00:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday i was doing cleaning for my room at nite...

suddenly feel like wanna clean it...

i throw out many rubbish that i keep since duno when... XD

now my room was as clean n as simple as possible...

i'm giving all my reference book i keep when i used on secondary school...

and i'm asking here to whoever sees my post, do u have any secondary referenca book that you dont need it anymore, can u gv it to my frenz???

anyway, i hv attend my first class on AE3, MIS, Management accounting n company law...

i think AE3 is quite fun n v are playing music chair n writing about us...

when i write it i'm having a feeling that i was blogging now n i was copying sj idea on write my blog add...

and i thankfully i was been able to understand wat the acc ah ma was teaching on her class...

but for my MIS class i was paying a lot of attention on his class cz i wasnt on the lab n i wasnt using the comp on his class...

and last for the law class, arrrghhh it was so damn boring, he wasnt teach much on it i think...

the oni thing i rmb was he was so boring....

finally BBF is in the end d, im going to watch it after my IT exam, i have to tahan my feel on watching it...

i will try my best to pass my IT...

trust me i will pass it...

thats for 2day, thx for reading...

will b start skol life again on 2mr...

2009-03-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

I will be start skoling again on 2mr...

Arrr... 2mr until 8.30 kah finish class arr, so late d n again hateful nite class...

I hate nite class cz i cant go home...T__T

I wanna go home, i din go home i hv a lot of thing i knt do...

I cant use my lap, i cant on9, i cant do many thing gok... T___T

Arrrgghhh, i will b very bored eh...

Nothing to do but to slp early...

Sumore 2mr cant do anything in the MIS class cz mayb wont b in the lab so no comp to use...

Haiz, sien nia...

Btw, sj eh blog gt Miku like my blog eh clock...

The mario song is so nice...

Miku miku miku nia...

So cute...

Done for 2day, bye...

crazy+ ing watching WE GOT MARRIED...XD

2009-03-30T02:25:00.002+08:00

Today i finally found the we got married (WGM) tat hyun joong n hwang bo married... *tada**clap*

Today is a speacial day for our family cz its the first time my niece gone for his first sports games o an olympic for him, he put a lot hard work on it n he won his first gold medal ( its a fake gold made by plastic la) bt he really enjoy it n learn sumthing from it i guess...

When he cum bek he told all of us even the ppl who is still slping n been drag by him bcz of the medal...

He was so happy wif it... *Clapping* for u...

Ok, lets talk abt the earth hour activity...

I was pretty up sad wif the attityde of the M'sian, i think oni a small community of ppl r switching off their light for the earth n they say tis is a suck project, no one in my taman was switching off their light excpet my house la...

N y r they nt supporting it, its for our earth ppl, v live in tis earth n v damaged it when v living but v oso nid to repair it o doing sumthing for it rite?!

Its our responsible to it... If the earth is ruin v oso ruin...T__T

PLZ DO SUMTHING FOR THE EARTH INSTEAD OF HURTING IT!!! (very angry abt it)

I oso hv a question for the M'sian government...

Why we didn't have a MRT at all the M'sia state especially at Penang??

Ok, i translate into malay cz i noe u maybe dun understand it...

(Mengapa tak ada MRT di seluruh Msia terutamanya di Pulau Pinang?)

Who can answer me, but i dun wan the answer tat abt money...

Who can tell me???

Tat for today, wanna go watch WGM n ply restaurant city, new game lai eh...>.<

new sem n resit is cumin...

2009-03-28T01:19:00.004+08:00
i go to skol 2day for the new sem registeration...
In tis sem v shud take 5 sub which is company law, business statistics, MIS (i dun remember wat its name is cz its too long), management accounting n academic 3...
OMG...
V hving the sam lect for MIS n mgnt acc...
Guru n tat ah ma again..
I so scare wif the ah ma lo she like to bring ppl around the world...
Sumore ade dun understand liao arr, she lagi bring u around the world, although v save a lot of m
money from her around world trip but i sooo scare she will make us fail leh... T__T...
Ok now is my schedule for tis sem...

Tues - AE3 n MIS
Wed - mgnt acc n law
Fri - bus stat

Lol, so scare abt this sem take eh sub, MIS + Mgnt acc + Law + Bus stat = FEAR
I dun wan hv another resit o fail tis sem again!!!
I will do my best for it!!!
I will pia for it!!!
But to sad to ah von she knt take mgnt acc wif us n jack oso knt take ae3 wif us oso...T___T
Too bad...
But gambateh, v will graduate 2gether eh, i think so...
2day v go watch movie at gurney... " Hotel For Dogs" is cute, i like it...^ ^
Too bad ah nut n sj knt watch wif us...
Ah nut n sj i wanna watch movie wif u 2 next time ya... yaksuk<>
Ok, i shud start study 2mr cz the resit is on 6 april, i sure will pass one...
Dun worry me...XD
OK LAH, wanna slp d...
Nite la all...
Have a nice dream...
*sj u hv to take gud care of ur body oso...
*Ah nut although i alwaz like to bully ( hehe, finally admit it, XD) but i very sayang u eh<>

2009-03-27T01:47:00.001+08:00

Yor~ I juz saw my past sem result, I gt a C for my marketing, Im quite happy wif it but when I saw I gt a D for my IT, I was feeling like “ shit I gt a D in my college life”.
I wasn’t study so hard for my IT cz I duno wat to study wat…
btw I wanna thx sj to tell me tat the result is out, thx sj…

when I was in the action of checking the result I was praying n hope I will pass it all but it din help… T__T

my brain nw was full of the word D~I~E = DIE…

I will gt scold by my mum n dad bcz I wasn’t study hard for the past sem…

I wasn’t in the mood on wanna study for tat sem although im thinking hard on wanna study… XD

Haiz… dun wanna think about it now…

Btw I oso wanna thx our ah nut for teaching me to use blogger o blogspot patiently…

Sorry yah, lane is quite a dumb oso, hehe… thx ya…

Oh ya, 2day I found my all my fav anime > Emma, jigoku shoujo( hell girl), colourcloud palace n god(?) save our king…

I will start watching it when I was free although I oso duno when is it, hehe…

I think its abt to finish my grandma story nw…

Beside tat I wanna promote a song tat ant help me find

Name: Gives You Hell

Singer: All American Reject

It’s a nice song I think, I like it…

Thx ah ant help me find it… arigato…

Its abt time for me to leave nw, wanna slp d…

Nite all… bye…

WILL BE CONTINUE….
THX FOR READING...

newbie...

2009-03-25T02:29:00.000+08:00
im a newbie here...
juz wanna try again hw blogging life are...
erm not much to write today, coz im too slpy n too tired...
bcz im still hvnt recharged bek my energy from the batu ferringi trip...
im so damn tired...